It's been quite a while since our last post, mostly because we needed time to recover from this summer. I still think (almost daily) did I really go through IVF? First, because it seems like so long ago, secondly, because I think back on exactly WHAT I did go through and it seems surreal.
In my last post I told you guys (if anyone ends up reading this, lol) that we were waiting to have some testing done to see if there were any issues on my end. We had one test done, a saline infused sonogram. If it sounds like fun, you're wrong. It is not. But thankfully, everything was normal. They were looking for blockages in the cervix and everything was as it should be. Our next test will be a biopsy this coming Monday. When we get the results I will keep you posted.
In the mean time, we are pursuing other options. One of which is adoption. We are currently on a waiting list to adopt through Florida Childrens Baptist Home. It looks like the actual application process will start in January. Here is where we can really use prayers: there is only one social worker over adoptions-thus the waiting list. She can only do so much, and instead of having an indefinite wait time after applying, we are on a list. Overall they say the typical process is about 9 months, similar to a pregnancy. The more flexible we are with our choices, (race, gender, age, etc) the better chance we have to fit into the window they suggest. We don't have a preference on gender, which means we will be able to be matched with a birth mother sooner since we won't have to wait to find out the sex. And our age preference is newborn, we would love to be able to experience some of the ultrasounds with the birth mother.
Scotty and I have been praying fervently that we would be following God's plan. I still plan to get pregnant in the future, God willing naturally, but feel that adoption is another desperate need that had we become pregnant may not have pursued otherwise. I heard recently, God does not make mistakes. Is that so satisfying? Knowing that every second of your life has been planned to be the best for you? God was there through our years of not conceiving, and we've grown even closer with Him through it. He was there through our trials with IVF, and I haven't felt so intimate with him ever before. Now, we are on a new journey. Waiting patiently, if you know me this is not easy. But I have found solitude and peace knowing that where we are right now, what we have hurt for and grieved over, we are exactly made in God's
perfect plan.
In the last couple months, we have migrated back to the Lakeshore campus at Van Dyke Church, which we now call home. We were attending North Campus, which sadly closed to to financial burden. We have also been attending Emerge on Thursdays at Van Dyke, and it's proven to be a much needed breather to our crazy, hectic weeks.
In other news, Scotty and I will be leaving for California in just a little over two weeks and we....are.....STOKED! We are going on a vacation, just the two of us! We haven't done that (being going away to vacation, not visit friends or family) since our first anniversary, with the exception of weekend trips. We plan to spend several days in San Francisco, take a drive over to Napa Valley, visit Alcatraz and the Redwood Forest. It will be a much needed rest, we are both impatiently waiting :)
So to close, instead of asking you to pray for us, I will be praying for you- our prayer warriors and readers! If you have a specific prayer, get at me-I certainly owe you a prayer or two ;)
